Come this 10 of May, I'll be in Spain and Portugal. Will be going holiday with my mum and sister. Am I excited? Oh no,......it cost me over $3,000 and not included expenses over there. Alas I just had to accompany my mum and sister. I'm like being 'force' to anticipates in their tour.

There's goes my laptop and new mobile phone. Gone with the wind you might add.

On top of my wallet being lighter, I have phobia of flying. Every times when I'm on the plane I become disabled by fear, so obviously to me flying a misery. For example when airplane takes off, my heart will be beating so fast, it like I just came back from a marathon run. I swear those sitting besides me thought that I'm trying to intimate darth vader due to my heavy breathing.

My fear of flying is that.
- Worry about the dangers of turbulence (Plane's wing might break)
- Not feeling in 'control'
- Crash (Confirm game over. Not like car accident, still have chance to survive.)
- Possibility of terrorism (Latest)

Did I mention I get nicotine withdrawal syndrome for long flight? My cold turkey got so bad, I was like drooling uncontrollably like a retard in a semi conscious state.

God bless me.
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