Some friends especially Rachel used to comment, my self-esteem and confidence is higher than taking my IQ or EQ test. I think it can reflected in my body language as well. Somehow they don't seem the same enthusiasm that I have. To some of them, my self-confidence projected arrogance.

Yes, confidence is contagious but so is lack of confidence. My self-confidence won't cross the line into over-confidence or arrogance state.

I used to lack of any self esteem or confidence when I was in my secondary school days. Felt like a wimp with people walking all over you, take advantage or just ignore you. Whatever I needed to do something, I asked. Afraid, I might made any error. On the street, I'm was intimidated of being seen simply because I thought my clothes looked dreadful.

My life had no meaning. I was unhappy, self destructive, unsatisfied and aggressive.

All that changed after I had my first job, in shipping. I was given the opportunity by my boss and his faith in me is even more crucial than confidence.

If back then, I would never have written any blog, afraid my English, vocabulary, grammar and writing skills cannot make it.

But now, I DON'T REALLY CARE!

Seriously, faith and confidence are an unconquered army. It's how the way you look at and feel about yourself.

Take a look at the picture below.



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Had lunch with 2 of my friends which I knew them during National Services time. Ah Lam and another chap from another platoon. Needlessly to say, this three amigos are in our mid-thirties liao.

DAMN, I forgot to take picture of our shoes. It's because THREE OF US all wore the same brand, cutting and design! Only colour separate us.

What's brand would 3 middle age men wear to work?
Converse high tops!

( Chuck Taylor All Stars)

We are middle age men and yet wear converse exclusively to work?
Boys will be boys.
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Wondering what happen to the gal that I took pictures with?
Let me refresh your memory.



Apparently, haven't seen her for 2 weeks and been avoiding her. Why? Went out with her for 2 months, I realized she got his habit I simply CANNOT stand.

She loves sms to her friends or vice versa even we're in the cinema!

She received sms every 5 minutes, be males or females, she duly responded. Even there no sms, she would open her pouch, check her mobile if there was any messages for her every ten freaking minutes!!

Initially, I disregard as I believe never stand between a female and her virbrate mobile phone. But as times goes by, I feel like a moron being high all the time. There's a fine line between fishing and just standing on the shore like an idiot.

I'm tired of all this nonsense however I never expressed my disapproval. For 2 weeks, been avoiding her like saying got ship to attend and I even dare not online my MSN messenger.(We used to chat during office hours)

Apparently she does not take the hint, she sms me today asking me why didn't get in touch with her or online my messenger? My goodness, what am I suppose to say?

Like, "Hey I don't like you sms, it's like you having a virtual sex partner out there?" Currently thinking what is the best solution.

One final note that I observed during the last 10 years of dating. I found out prettier girls are more easier to date than those below average. Those gals who are way below in looks department were the hardest to date.

I'm not kidding, it's based on my experience.
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For the last 2 months, I've been very hectic with my activity like going to KTV & pub. Possibility within a week, I can “chiong” 2 to 3 times! This exposure, of course took its toll on my body, brain and my wallet. I never wrote any entry on this before and I thought, probably I will cease all clubbing pursuit by end of this month, I might well write at least once.

Let me start off my so-called extracurricular on last Friday after work. Initially was going to a pub but my friend suddenly shifted his attention to this KTV as there were his “kakis” Unfortunately for me, I knew them as well so.....

Time: 8:30pm
Types: KTV
Damage: High

Been this particular KTV before. There were more than 10 of us guys and of course it's not those family KTV. Inside were like United Nation because there were hostess there were with multiple nationality like Singaporean , Malaysian, Vietnamese or PRC

(semi nude, hostress)

Took of her top/bra and dance. Trust me, this ain't nothing yet. I remember there another KTV even outrageous. Taking photo/video with them is not a problem as they are very liberal....I really mean it.

This place absolutely bored me to death. My first encounter in these type of KTV was more than 10 years ago but as I get older, all this became irrelevant as I rather have an intelligent conversation instead. I'm not going to another KTV ever again, I swear!

Left the place 3 hours later with a friend and proceed to a pub at Tanjong pager.

Time: 12:00am
Types: Pub
Damage: Medium

I had been to this pub only for 5 times. Got to know this waitress, she's only 20 years old. (Her name is Joyce) I learned all this years of clubbing......talking about dirty/sex never failed light up any the atmosphere. Tonight, she wore those bareback top with jean and her back was completely bare! Damn, she was hot and sexy!

After her work at 2:30am, left the place with her. Together with my friend, we went to Red cafe.

Time: 3:00am
Types: Disco
Damage: Medium

Three of us went to Devil bar for some chill out time. Seriously, I didn't know nowadays here they open til 6:00am. Actually I didn't know a lot of things. Like I asked this Joyce why she didn't dance, she said, “ My stick on bra will drop” while she holding her 2 busts.

My God, Singapore modern girls now are so outspoken!

So in one night, I went to 3 places to drink. At this rate, I wouldn't live past 40s. Currently, cutting all entertainment with the exception of going to one pub.
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I just came to realize now it's the Ghost Month. The gates of hell open wide and the spirits or hungry ghosts are allowed a month of feasting, wander to seek food on Earth.

Hungry Ghost festival is a popular occasion that is taken very seriously by the Chinese. Some even think that the ghosts would seek revenge on those who had wronged them in their lives. The reason why the Chinese celebrate this festival is to remember their dead family members and pay tribute to them.

Now I had this dream for the past few night. I dream of my buddy, TEE. It's seem that he wanted something from me that I haven't give it to him yet. After few night of pestering by him, finally I know what he wants.

According to TEE, he came to visit me 2 times already which was last year and this year. He did visits Bear's house as well. Now he would like to pay Melvin a visit and he don't have Melvin' s house address.

He is really piss off, I can tell by his tone.

Been to Melvin's house once and I lost his address, nevertheless being as resourceful that I was, I use GOOGLE to search of Melvin's address and hallelujah, I found it.

To safeguard Melvin's privacy, I'm not revealing his full address here. His address is Blk 507x, Wellington Circle, #x2-14x S(7515xx)

I did asked TEE, of all our platoons mate, why look for Melvin whom just a mere acquaintance (he knew Melvin through me). He didn't say anything, he just stare at me. He looked so......thin and pale. Leaving me no choice, so today I wrote down Melvin full address and burned together with some offering (paper money) to my buddy, TEE.

He should be appeases now. He should pay a visits to Melvin anytime now.

Melvin, ask you something.
Did you borrow money from Tee before he passed away?
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Nathan has been re-elected to a second six-year term in office as President. He is the ONLY candidate qualified to stand for election, having been issued the Certificate of Eligibility by the Presidential Elections Committee.

There were three others who filed for the certificate were rejected which mean we have no election.....yet again.

As a Singaporean, I thought I have the power to vote for my elected president this time. But at the end of the day, I am just like everyone here, we have no say at all.

The majority of Singaporeans should be the one to decide who should be the president and why the election committee can override the majority interests? If this is the case, I urge this Presidential Election system to be cease. It's a waste of people's money and time to stage such wayang.

If Kuan is as bad as the newspaper said, then let him go into election and let the people vote and decide. Why afraid? If Nathan is good, he will win hands down for sure, so why worry about that Kuan?

I suspect if Kuan are allow to run for president, he probably will win...BIG.

By the way, is it still necessary to have a President? Paying over 2 millions for his salary? We can save all the money! During National Day Parade get our PM to stand there and if not, our D.PM also can do.

On a more serious note, I don't think any erection election to make any different here. Whether it's the storekeeper, some retired tutor or even some chap selling roti prata becomes President, it still won't change our life for the better. Period.

Still there's nothing more piss off than this.
There goes my public holiday!
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Honestly, I can't believe that it has already been a year. Actually I started my online diary much earlier when I still using yahoo (my website). Since emigrate to blogspot, it made me so much easier and faster to update. I'm talking hours vs minutes here.

Since 15 Aug 04, my online diary remain a fairly close resemblance; Like eat what, going out to where, who I see, what I see...etc. Should I change my approach to blogging? Most probably, it ain't gonna to happen.

There are times, I really wanted to stop blogging because it takes up a lot of my time, like uploading pictures, resize photo.....thinking how to write...etc. Of course laziness do play a big big part. Guys, you have no idea how much effort I put. At times, it took me hours to complete(only minutes to read). This alone, I feel like throwing in the towel. But when friends called or sms you telling you they enjoyed your work, it gave me strength & motivation to carry on again. (You know who you are)

Also I write for a reason, having them read my online journal like like keeping in touch even we don't meet or called each other. How I wish my friends have online journal as well so I could know what is going on in their lives.

Remember this guys, "Out of sight is out of mind"
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Go to my website and sing.....

Dedicated esp to the hosts of National day parade.

Wau lau en, a mere 4 peaceful protesters, they send in the whole riot squad! Next times, if the protesters swell to 10, probably K9 units, apache helicopter or F16 might call in.

Well, I was not surprise the riot police was called in for 4 peaceful protesters. Remember the hundreds of Police, Army & The Gurkha's was called upon to go after the 3 fugitives at Paula Tekong?

Maybe the riot police needs some drill practise, that's why the whole squad was brought in.

Excerpt:

“This section go to the right! The rest go left! No one is to come through!” barked the corporal to his men, clad in full riot gear – truncheons, shields, head gear, and shin guards.

The threat? Four (yes, 4) activists who had assembled outside the Central Provident Fund Building in downtown Singapore to protest against the non-transparent and non-accountable nature of the way the Singapore Government deals with public funds"

Check out the full story with picture HERE (Click on it)

I am emotionless and numb when it comes to work during the holiday. Too used to it by now. On my way to my vessel, I saw this!

(Third of the left)

Unable to identity it? How about the next picture?



Please.......lah. Still cannot?
Okie......NEXT!

(Shiok, right?)

Yup, it a submarine from Singapore navy. I know this thing is not new but it’s the first time I’ve ever seen it face to face.

More pictures





I reckoned when she past by me, I think it was about 30 meters away only. Cool......

Reached home took a nap and woke up just in time to watch National parade. On tv and I saw this Kermit........I mean Gurmit Singh and Sharon Au. They are shouting..........I repeat, SHOUTING instead talking on the microphone. I couldn't hear what they were saying esp Sharon Au. Her English was broken, her pronunciation is like rapping.

Mediacorp do not have better option than her?

She tied her hair in pigtails acting cute like little girl. Oh my God, I feel like puking once again. (I vomit earlier when I saw her on TV). How old is she now? Not only that, she was jumping, hopping like a silly toad.

Really, Sharon Au is......si bei Au.

Then this Kermit Gurmit keeping saying things like, “Everybody scream”. If you watch international event like the Sydney Olympic have you ever hear the MC asking the audiences to scream? No sirs! He thinks he is still in the tea dance disco or some idol concert, probably. This is freaking parade!

If not, he asked the audiences, “Are you rocking”. I looked at the crowd consists of toddlers, housewives and grandparents and he asking them to rock? Rock what?

Children rock the rocking chair, housewives rock their wok and grandma rock their walking stick? Nanbei!

Ah yes, his fave phases, screaming top of his lung “Let me hear some noisessss” Then this Sharon would twist her head in every direction, like the parrot, screaming like she's being tortured by a loan shark. This alone almost made me smash my tv set.

“Everybody scream”, “Are you rocking”,“Let me hear some noise” was repeated over and over again. It's shows that our 2 MC are incompetent, perhaps does not know any better other than to cater to the needs of the spectators.

When the parade started, lucky for everybody, both of them disappeared.
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Bear needs my help re-installing XP on his pc. So met up with him after his work at 6:00pm.

Social time at 6:00pm,
Dinner at 6:15pm and followed by
My lecture at 6:30pm.

You see, it all because of Bear's hair.



So what the freaking problem with hair, you might add?

Well, if you watch Internal Affair, the Hong Kong movie, Andy Lau act as Lau Kin Ming, he has short hair as well, right? But you look at Bear's hair, it has no shape nor style. It fact his hair resemble this chap name Kent Cheng stars as Fat Cat, a mentally challenged fellow.



In short, Bear appeared clumsy and this hair style make him looked retarded.

Went to his house before few times and his house remain very “complex”. I thought my brother's place(with 2 kids) was messy, but this is incredible.

(Taken from front door)

What is that red shirt hanging at the living hall?

(That's his pc)

There was this theory that some people are born neat and others disorganized. For me, I like my home looks like a showcase. I hate to admit that I am obsessed about keeping home clean and neat.

Help Bear to reformat and re-installing OS. During the installation, it prompt us for the cd keys. Guess what? Bear lost his cd keys.

(Search and search.......)

Ah Bear is very disorganized indeed.
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Feeling urge for a smoke, so I went downstairs for a quickie. Opps, saw “old veg” squatting there with a stony-faced like he hadn't slept in whole night. He whispers secretively on his mobile phone.



My first impression is that I wanted to trail him for dubious reasons, quickly whip out my mobile, snap a picture. He continue ignoring me like I'm invisible.



Why is he ignoring me? No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't get him off this phone

(Mute out the sound)

I figure out, he is talking with a female. Hello, Karen (Old veg's wife) I know you're reading this, your hubby has done such a fantastic job. He is certainly talented!

He may not have hair, but he's still one fine looking vegetable. Better keep an eye on your hubby, ya.

During lunch time I was at Clifford pier vicinity. I decided it has been so long since I had any reported adventures with Melvin, so called him up for lunch together and his comment had really upset me.

What do he mean he had already eaten? It's only 12:15pm. I'm hurt, I need to nurse my wounds. For some strange reason I'm becoming increasingly disorientated and agitated.

Did he show up?
This picture say it all.

(wipe off that smile before I slap you)

I always maintain a person with high degree of potential violent will win any psychological conflict.

Take a look at his clothes, guys.

(A potential security guard)

That's his uniform. He wore dark blue pant with long shelves blue shirt and they look every bit like that private security guard. I think he knows his plan for his retirement.

Who can blame him? Even Nathan if he wear like this, people might mistaken him as selling roti prata chap.
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Just last week, a new female colleague has joined my company. When she started work on her first day and she was introduced to everybody. During that time, I was not in the office. After seeing her for one week, I still have no idea what is her name.

Time: 5:00PM
As I leaving my office, I walked past her department saw her working furiously and me trying to take the gentleman approach, I started talking to her, like asking her name or even better any "exclusion", hot news. In less 20 seconds of conversation, another female colleague of mine came in and guess what?

She said, “I knew it, you are trying to score points with new girls again” And she turned to my new colleague and said, “ This one very sneaky fellow, please refrain from speaking to him too much. Now he will put on a modest front, after that you will be eaten alive by him in later stage”

Holy smoke, I realized in my company the girls here label me as a buaya! No idea what a buaya is? Dear friends, buaya is Malay for “crocodile” which means “wolf” or a womanizer, flirt.

I seriously think she's think too highly of me. My buaya skill is still infant stage. Hahah.

But anyhow, I'm going to do an interview of myself one of these days.

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They said,
Got this colleague, called Nicky How
A well-known buaya, that all can see..
See girls only, go phee-0-whee.
And flash his Thai Rolex, gleefully.

All the women, in our company.
Think he very, touchy-feely.
See him quickly, siam jit pee.
Or stare at lizard, in the pantry.

I said,
My van from top, looks Ferrari.
Shirt from far, looks like Armani.
Tie from side, becomes JPG.
Pants seen from bottom, is Versace.

Payday I buy the girls Gucci.
And diamond rings from Tiffany.
Bring them to zoo, till the hippos know me.
How come I still BOH SENG LEE?