It's my best friend the 2nd anniversary of his demised.

My buddy, Tee also known as Eric passed away somewhere in 31/03/03 to 02/04/2003. As Tee's decomposed body was discovered by his neighbor, exact date/time of death remained unknown.

Why did he choose to end his life? He was only 30 years old then.
During these 2 years, how I wish he would appear in my dream and tell me so.

Before his death a year ago, he was telling me about his problem with his wife. At times he would whined about the cost of living, his baby diaper bill, etc however there was no debt being mentioned. So I presumed money issue is out of the equation.

We often hanged out together going for drinks and every times he get himself drunk, he would talked about commit suicide. As time goes by, I began seriously doubt his words and this remained one of the regretted I had in my life.

Sometimes I wonder, if I give him a little more care and attention, would this sad story ending be any different. Needless to say, his death was a devastating blow to me.

He is one of the most humorist person I ever knew. Without him, in all honestly, I will NEVER be lively as today. He has transformed me without a doubt and if not for his companionship, during my days in NS and reservist would be characterless.

As my best friend, I've tried to find the words to describe how his death has impacted my life. There are no adequate words in the English language to describe my loss. Till today, I still think of him.

It is a sad thing that this incredibly bright candle has been snuffed out.

The big question is.........
Why did he do it?

I guess I will never know. Even if he able to narrate his story to me now I may not able understand because I have not experience what he has been through.

Tee's death might closed a chapter in both our lives, but his friendship and the happy memories will remain forever with me.

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